It has been a hot second since I wrote anything here.
Life has been incredibly busy, and ever changing and to be honest I was starting to feel like this blog didn’t reflect where I was in my life anymore. I contemplated starting over, writing a new one, but just couldn’t quite bring myself to do it. I started scrolling through here, looking back on the things that I have written and couldn’t help smiling at most of it, so instead of starting over, I made the decision to work at changing things up on here.
You will notice there are some different pages on the blog now, reflecting things that have become important parts of my life, one of the big ones being a new health and wellness page.
I have struggled with my weight and mental health for years. My rising weight being a direct reflection of how I was doing emotionally. For the last year or so, I have been working hard to get my life back on track and to start taking better care of myself, in all aspects.
In January, I got an electronic body composition scale for Christmas, and after having not stepped on a scale in probably a year, was horrified to see that I was at the heaviest I have ever been in my life. On January third, I weighed in at 211lbs. Which at 5’8 in height…. it’s not great. Beyond just the number on the scale, I felt gross: I was low energy, low confidence, nothing I owned fit right anymore… in short I was incredibly unhappy. I was going to the gym regularly, but I wasn’t training with any intention, and to be brutally honest, I was eating like an asshole.
After the horrifying weigh in, where I could no longer lie to myself that ‘it wasn’t that bad’, I decided it was time to make a change. I started concentrating more on healthy eating, planning meals out in advance and counting calories. I was also becoming more conscious about training with intention in the gym. Over the month of January, I lost about 10lbs and was starting to feel better about myself. I was noticing better energy levels and just more awareness of self.
In February, I decided to do something a little more drastic, switched over to eating Keto. Now I know that keto isn’t for everyone, and there are upsides and downsides to every diet so I will keep this brief: keto worked well for me. I felt good on it, my energy levels were great, but I struggled to eat enough fat. I kept up strict keto for about 4 months and don’t regret having tried it. One of the biggest things that I learned through it was actuallt reading nutrition labels on food and portioning appropriately. I also learned to track macros, not just calories. Throughout keto, I kept working out, despite the fact that it got a little tricky when the world shut down due to Covid in March. I managed with home workouts, and running outside, all while still eating within my macros.
About 2 months ago now, I stopped following a strict keto diet. It can be incredibly difficult to feel like you are enjoying what you eat when you are missing out on a lot of treat foods, especially in the summer. So instead of cutting out absolutely ALL junk food, I am not concentrating on eating healthy, while accommodating the occasional treat, all while keeping up a steady gym schedule. I am definitely far more happy now, while still maintaining my weight, and still working at shedding a couple more lbs while toning up.
On that note, the current results of my health journey have me down a total of 48lbs. Yes, you read that right. 48lbs since January. All while building muscle and getting stronger and faster in the gym. Through all of this, I have learned the importance of setting goals to hold yourself accountable, but also the importance of loving the process, not just the end results. I am actually able to say that I am enjoying this, all of it. I eat good food, I love working out, and I love seeing the results. I no longer feel like I am missing out on things because I can’t eat them, I am just far more mindful of what I am eating, and choosing my treats carefully.
I am going to leave it at this for now, but I am planning on doing a bunch more writing on my health and wellness journey. I will also be taking some time to touch on mental health and a bit of what I am working on there. But for today, this will have to do 😉